I called my father just now n i feel....weird...Well,it was the 1st time i call him since i came back from June holiday.This doesnt mean that i nv talk to him during these 4 months, but it's always been my father who call me first.Anw he only called me 3-4 times la.This is totally DIFFERENT from what i do to my mum la.I talk to her on phone everyday, or more than once a day.If she doesnt call me then i'll call her, if i dun call her then she'll call me....
Somehow i feel guilty, bcoz i only call my father when i need his help...and he nv complain abt this..he will do what i ask him to do.I do appreciate what he did for me very much, but yet i cant give him my full love. I also duno why..perhaps it's because we nv really spend time together? Anw he cant expect me to love him as much as i love my mum la...in my whole life it has always been mum who raise me n my brother up.it's mum who fetch us to school every morning.it's mum who provide us with food, house, everything we have, even love.
well i know that dad is trying his best to do things he failed to do as a father when we(me n my brother) were young.He offer to fetch me from the airport when i get back to Thailand.He even bought my brother a car.Im surprised and at the same time HAPPY!I wish things will get better n better..n i wish one day in the future, we will come back together as a family..a happy family with mum n dad around. Just hope that miracle will really happen =D
*I love u dad, n im trying to love u more n more everyday =D
